Tonight I have a heavy heart. Not totally sure why, other than all of the craziness that's been going on over the last week. But I think it has to do with school starting. Everyone is getting ready to send their kids back...school supplies have been bought and lunches have been packed. It's really an exciting time of year. Kai is super excited to start back -- he has Ms. Teri and already loves her! I'm praying that excitement will continue on through the first day when he actually has to go!
But I am still so unsure about things with Cade this year...where he will go, and then what it will look like when he actually gets there. We have been frantically trying to talk to people and make decisions. Tomorrow morning we are going to orientation at the public school for PreK. I just cannot get peace that public school is the best place for him right now. Don't get me wrong, they can definitely provide the best accomodations for him...mostly because they have to. But I guess I was just hoping, really thinking I would be pretty sure by now what was best.
I know many of you have prayed for us throughout our journey with Cade. I reach out to you now and ask that you pray again...pray first of all that I have peace about where to send him this year. And pray that wherever it is it will be the right fit for Cade...I am so worried that he will just be lost in the shufffle. It was so hard to turn him over to his teacher at 18 months when we sent him 2 mornings each week. It is so much harder now...I feel like I cannot tell them enough about what he needs, how he makes it through the day, what works best for him.
Last Thursday Cade and I went to the public school so he could get screened for PreK. We walked into the classroom and I immediately saw Cade get totally overwhelmed -- his eyes scanned the room and he began to move from one spot to the other. The screener just kept saying, "Over here to the table, Cade...you've got to come over here and sit down. You can play with those things later, but I need you to come to the table." All I could think was "Please just give him some time to acclimate to this new room and all of the 'busyness' in it..." Sitting down at a table to do anything is super hard for Cade, especially in a classroom full of new things with someone he doesn't even know.
Please pray that his teacher just "gets" him -- that she will understand what makes him tick and just roll with it. Please pray that the other kids get him, too...that they don't think he is just the "weird little boy" who chews and licks and runs all over, but that he really can be a great friend if you just give him a chance. Please let there be little boys like Mason and Noah and Wiley, his best buddies from years past, who just took him where he was and loved him anyway.
I wish I could just protect him forever...just tuck him inside my wing and keep him safe from all that this great big world is going to throw at him. But I know that really isn't best...I know that I must let him fly, even though his wing is broken and it takes him a little longer. And I do know that many years from now we will look back on this year and just marvel at where he was and where God has brought him to.
A song comes to my mind that I love called, "For Such a Time As This" by Wayne Watson. It basically says that we were placed on the earth for such a time as this - whatever it is that is happening right now. I truly believe, I know, that God has prepared a teacher and little friends just for Cade right now at this time in his life...for such a time as this. I just need to take a deep breath and trust Him. So I made this little video for him, for all of us...just so we can remember that no matter what is happening right now we are in the spot we need to be -- for such a time as this...
But I am still so unsure about things with Cade this year...where he will go, and then what it will look like when he actually gets there. We have been frantically trying to talk to people and make decisions. Tomorrow morning we are going to orientation at the public school for PreK. I just cannot get peace that public school is the best place for him right now. Don't get me wrong, they can definitely provide the best accomodations for him...mostly because they have to. But I guess I was just hoping, really thinking I would be pretty sure by now what was best.
I know many of you have prayed for us throughout our journey with Cade. I reach out to you now and ask that you pray again...pray first of all that I have peace about where to send him this year. And pray that wherever it is it will be the right fit for Cade...I am so worried that he will just be lost in the shufffle. It was so hard to turn him over to his teacher at 18 months when we sent him 2 mornings each week. It is so much harder now...I feel like I cannot tell them enough about what he needs, how he makes it through the day, what works best for him.
Last Thursday Cade and I went to the public school so he could get screened for PreK. We walked into the classroom and I immediately saw Cade get totally overwhelmed -- his eyes scanned the room and he began to move from one spot to the other. The screener just kept saying, "Over here to the table, Cade...you've got to come over here and sit down. You can play with those things later, but I need you to come to the table." All I could think was "Please just give him some time to acclimate to this new room and all of the 'busyness' in it..." Sitting down at a table to do anything is super hard for Cade, especially in a classroom full of new things with someone he doesn't even know.
Please pray that his teacher just "gets" him -- that she will understand what makes him tick and just roll with it. Please pray that the other kids get him, too...that they don't think he is just the "weird little boy" who chews and licks and runs all over, but that he really can be a great friend if you just give him a chance. Please let there be little boys like Mason and Noah and Wiley, his best buddies from years past, who just took him where he was and loved him anyway.
I wish I could just protect him forever...just tuck him inside my wing and keep him safe from all that this great big world is going to throw at him. But I know that really isn't best...I know that I must let him fly, even though his wing is broken and it takes him a little longer. And I do know that many years from now we will look back on this year and just marvel at where he was and where God has brought him to.
A song comes to my mind that I love called, "For Such a Time As This" by Wayne Watson. It basically says that we were placed on the earth for such a time as this - whatever it is that is happening right now. I truly believe, I know, that God has prepared a teacher and little friends just for Cade right now at this time in his life...for such a time as this. I just need to take a deep breath and trust Him. So I made this little video for him, for all of us...just so we can remember that no matter what is happening right now we are in the spot we need to be -- for such a time as this...
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